The Reason

This blog was started as a way for me to record our, my daughter Luisa and our family's, journey with Amniotic Band Syndrome that presented itself on the head of our sweet daughter. And has turned into a journey of dealing with a fatal prognosis, and the very premature death of our sweet baby. My great hope is that we might be able to help at least someone, if not more, by sharing this experience.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

One Month-iversary

Today marks one month since I have delivered Luisa's stillborn body. Yesterday was worse than today, I think, because of anticipating what this day would be like. I wasn't sure if I would be emotional or sad or what, and yesterday I was pretty bummed out. But today there were some sensitive moments, but overall a very peaceful day. I had a sweet friend, my old roommate from college who is living here in Phoenix temporarily, pay me an unexpected visit. Luckily, today, I decided to get dressed and not stay in my pajamas all day. She brought me a pot of bright, happy, yellow Gerbera Daisies to plant in a memorial garden for Luisa. And chocolate truffles ( that'll lift me out of any slump). And then my sweet, adorable, almost-ready-to-start-her-80th-year Grandmother called. She never calls. But she did call, today. She just wanted to see how we were doing. So, it really was a nice day.

7 comments:

  1. I'm glad you had an "okay" day on this 1st month anniversary. Oftentimes for me - the anticipation of the milestone is worse than the actual day itself. HUGS!!

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  2. I'm so glad that today has been peaceful! For Eli's one month, we delivered goodie baskets to the L&D and postpartum ward of the hospital where he was born. It was a sweet time also. The anticipation is almost always worse than the actual day. At least that has been my experience. Praying for you sweet mama! Sending hugs your way!

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  3. I'm glad you made it through this milestone ok. There will be many but each one will get a little easier. Stay well :)

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  4. I'm glad you found some moments of peace on such a hard day.

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  5. I do find that the days leading up to that actual milestone are worse too.

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