The saddest words that I have ever heard in my life,
" Unfortunately, I cannot see your baby's heartbeat. I am so sorry."
Our sweet baby Luisa has left the way of the earth to be at home with her Heavenly Father. It is the saddest day of my life, but also the most peaceful, if that's possible. I am so sad that my time with her was so short. I am so,so sad that my dear husband did not get any time with her. I am 23 weeks along, but based on her long bone length the doctor believes the death occured around 2 weeks ago. I last felt her about 11 days ago while singing in a performance of Handel's Messiah. It was our first time, mine and Luisa's singing together. Right now I am waiting to hear from the hospital to find out when to come in and deliver her. The longest wait of my life.
As I look over at my 1 1/2 year old, stealing my crackers and cheese and playing with blocks, I am touched by the miracle of child bearing and birth. We take those events for granted, I think, because we have so many perfectly successful pregnancies, and perfectly wonderful children running around this earth. But, I now know that these two events are so miraculous, and should I have more children, I won't take those events for granted. My love to all who have been praying for us, I feel those prayers, they are giving me strength and comfort.