Yesterday, Jan. 1, 2011, 1/1/11, our sweet daughter, Luisa Kathleen was born still. the labor was about 11 hours. An induced vaginal delivery. She was tiny. So very, very tiny. More fetal than infant-like. 7.9 oz, 8 inches, and fitting perfectly in the palm of my hand. The estimated time of death was approximately 2 weeks ago, so her sweet body had already started to shrink and deteriorate. But, I can tell you, that it was still special to hold her tabernacle of flesh and oh, so tender bones, that housed such a beautiful, special spirit. Our journey with her life, diagnosis, and prognosis has just ended, and it was way, way too short. Now our journey with grieving, healing, and moving forward begins. My heart aches, I weep because I love her. But I have peace of mind knowing, and I mean KNOWING without a doubt that this was her designed plan, designed by Him who knows all and knows what is truly best. And I have peace KNOWING that she is with Heavenly Father and she is happy. And I have peace KNOWING that we WILL be together again, all of us, living in our Heavenly Home with our Heavenly Father, and all of our dear loved ones who have left this mortal life and enjoy Eternal Life as an Eternal Family.
But I am human. So I still feel the pain of loss. I will still feel sad. I will still weep. My heart will still ache. But the peace is still there.