Saturday, January 15, 2011
Daisies
Two weeks ago today I delivered my sweet baby Luisa's still body. Last night as I was driving to Fry's Electronics ( my husband's favorite store ) with our two little boys I had an intense memory of being at the hospital and delivering my child. It was so intense that not only did I feel those emotions so intensely that I started to cry, but I also could almost smell the hospital room. And it didn't smell bad, but that is just how strong the memory was. It really caught me off guard. So today I decided to do something to kind of commemorate the day, in a way. I bought a bouquet of daisies, white pom daisies. I love them. I had a bouquet of white pom daisies and red roses for my wedding. I bought a beautiful arrangement of white pom daisies, spray pink baby roses and evergreen for Luisa's grave. And we had everyone at the burial service put a single white daisy on her casket. I remember standing in front, shivering, feet frozen, and taking a deep breath of that lovely daisy scent, and it actually made me smile, right there at my sweet Luisa's burial service. That is how much I love daisies. So today I bought some daisies and once again they made me smile.
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It never fails to amaze me how vividly smells of that day or days surrounding Eli's birth and death can affect me. I was walking through Wal-mart the other night and a smell hit me that took me right back to one of those moments. I think I went through the rest of my shopping in a daze. I love daisies also! They are so beautiful!
ReplyDeleteYou never know when the memories will sneak up on you and the emotions will flood. I still have my moments and it's been almost a year. Hang in there!
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